Tonight...

I was not super mom.

I was not the mom that everyone strives to be.

It didn't show on the outside.

On the outside I was the same mom as usual.

But in my head I was failing at motherhood.

No. In my head I was not failing at being a mom...I was failing at being who Jesus wants me to be.

I am thankful that I am a child of the King. And that He loves me where I'm at. And that when these times come, that He is there to listen.

I am thankful that I can go through the routine.....dinner...games...pjs...brush teeth...bedtime. And that the whole time, I can pour out my feelings of frustration and apathy and confusion to Jesus. And He is there to listen. And He still loves me. And He fills in the gaps. And He helps turn my mind back to Himself..where it needs to be.